Tone Change

My bad started week has continued wrong...

I have a new counselor about my unemployment. Until now I was a ''good boy'' searching with all I can search. I know I was less efficient this year as my motivation was collapsing, but in my search for a real job I worked for short missions. In short, I wasn't a desesperate case, therefore I do was desesperate not finding a real job.

I didn't prepared myself to speak precisely about all of my work j so I forgot some informations defending my good will (I forgot the employments I had which were not about my main skills for example) and finally I've been proposed a ''reorientation'' (as it was a new thing when it's already what I've done for years...).

In fact I've been reproached about not solving my ''unemployment problem'' and not having any short-term real project. So here I'm in a... medium-term process, which could become real like 3 months before mine. But no one of these is sure to become so I try all the ideas, without an unique goal as it didn't worked for now.

The tone in changing nationaly. See a survey by CREDOC [Research Center for Survey and Observation on Life Conditions] revealing a ''hardening'' in the French opinion: 2 of 3 agrees that ''if they really wanted to, most unemployed could find a job'' [that's the moment to remember that you can easily find a job, but it's hard to fin a good one, enough good to live with] and even 4 of 10 thinking that ''people living in poverty have not made effort to get out''.

So my counselor is in a burst corresponding to the national mood: it's not because there is not work that you should not find one!

This morning I heard on the radio an interesting thought: ''we didn't fight the unemployment because it's far away the government'' [Guillaume Erner's editorial on national radio FranceInter].

I think differently, more politicaly... ''We'' aggraves the lack of jobs to pressure the workers: they will accept what they ''luckily'' have (a minimal salary without asking to improve their working conditions, payment neither social insurance) not to become ''an unemployed'' like the others.

I have no conclusion to this post, except that this interview with the unemployment national agency was not good for my moral. I did what I had to do during the day, but I didn't come out at night and it's hard to restart today. Therefore I still have ideas and energy but I can't connect the both to achieve something.

Tough week...

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